Palm Desert, CA (October 22, 2026) – Michael Gray, star of the 1970s live-action television series Shazam! and a true teen idol of the era, passed away from natural causes on Friday, October 16. He was 75.

Gray, who frequently adorned the covers of Tiger Beat and other popular teen magazines, got his initial TV series break in 1972 when he was cast in NBC’s The Little People alongside Brian Keith and Shelly Fabares. The actor’s early career also included supporting roles in popular primetime TV series like The Brady Bunch (as Marcia’s boyfriend in a 1973 episode), Dynasty, Marcus Welby, M.D., Room 222 and The Flying Nun. He also played Burt Reynolds’ younger brother in the TV movie Run, Simon, Run, and appeared in the iconic 1970 films Beyond the Valley of the Dolls and Myra Breckinridge.

But it was his landing the role of Billy Batson in the Saturday morning live-action series Shazam! that thrust Gray into the national spotlight, and cemented his place in the super hero acting pantheon.

“I didn’t know the character or the story when I was initially cast, so I had to be a quick study – so it was fun and exhausting, challenging and thrilling, all at once,” Gray said during a Comic-Con panel. “It didn’t matter that it was on Saturday morning or prime time – though the fact that it was one of the first few live-action shows on Saturday morning was exciting. It truly was a thrilling show to work.”

In recent years, Gray enjoyed a career resurgence both in acting and on the convention circuit. The FX comedy series Archer gave Gray an animated boost as one of Sterling Archer’s boyhood idols, dubbing him as “TV’s Michael Gray” and featuring him in four episodes. He was also featured in the ongoing indie super hero film franchise Surge of Power, on AMC’s Comic Book Men, and was recruited for a fun cameo in Shazam! Fury of the Gods, where he interacted with Zachary Levi’s Captain Marvel in a wink to the original series.

Everyone who worked with Gray never had anything but praise for his professionalism, positive attitude, and joyful embrace of life.

“From my very first day on Shazam!, Mike and Les (Tremayne) welcomed me like a king,” says Shazam! co-star John Davey. “Mike was just a loving, sweet guy with a great sense of humor. He loved acting, loved doing the show and, in recent years, loved appearing at comic cons. He really enjoyed meeting and chatting with the fans. Mike was a wonderful man – I don’t think he ever stopped smiling.”

Born in Chicago, IL on September 2, 1951, Gray would ultimately grow up in Miami Beach before heading to Hollywood to launch his career. He studied acting at the prestigious Pasadena Playhouse, and soon began getting roles in television series. Gray’s manager, Tiger Beat magazine publisher Charles Laufer, kept him in the national consciousness enough that it triggered a series of new roles, most notably his three-year run as teenage Billy Batson on Shazam!

Not every moment on Shazam! was pure joy. Filming involved long days on locations that weren’t always the most comfortable. And as they filmed during the early days of super hero TV series magic, some visual effects kinks were still being ironed out.

“I remember when we were experimenting with the change from Billy to Captain Marvel, using a sort of flash device, and POOF — the smoke would clear, and I was a little singed,” Gray recalled to Comic Book Resources. “They changed that real quick. That definitely didn’t work.”

Being a teen idol also took its toll on Gray.

“The teen idol angle was orchestrated to some degree,” Gray said. “They wanted me to be the next David Cassidy. I was on the front cover of Tiger Beat often, and it worked. Back then, when the show was running and all the fan magazine coverage was going on, I couldn’t leave my house. It got pretty ugly sometimes.”

Eventually, teen idol Gray felt typecast in virtually every role offered to him – and he decided to depart the acting side of Hollywood. During his lengthy hiatus from acting, amongst other employment, Gray took a gig in children’s theater education, worked in men’s fashion, and owned and operated a popular West Hollywood floral business with his wife, Stacy. 

Gray rediscovered the Shazam! fandom when Warner Bros. remastered the series for distribution on DVD in 2012 (and subsequently on Blu-ray), opening the door for Gray to appear at fan conventions and be offered new on-camera roles.

“I can’t tell you how overwhelmed I am – Shazam! is such a major part of my life, and for 30-some-odd-years, it just collected dust,” Gray told Derek McCaw of Fanboy Planet at the time of the DVD release. “I run into people 10 times a week who ask me, ‘When is Shazam! going to come out on DVD?’ ‘Have they ever put it back on TV?’ I didn’t know how much I would like Shazam! until years later when I found out how much of an influence my character and the show was on people’s lives.

“There were such good moral values to the show, and I meet people (everyday) who say, ‘You have no idea what you did for me as a child.’ ‘You helped me get through life.’ ‘You made me the better man, or woman, that I am today.’ And that’s a nice feeling. I didn’t know the show had that much strength and power back then.”

Gray is survived by Stacy Benon Gray, whom he married in 1994, along with his stepchildren Ryan Cooper and Laurel Cooper, and son-in-law Lee Barker.

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Behind the scenes about the band sum 41 and how they got that name: Original Band: Deryck Whibley and Steve Jocz originally played in a high school NOFX cover band called Kaspir. The Inspiration: In the summer of 1996, the duo attended the Vans Warped Tour, which inspired them to start a new band designed to play that style of music. The Date: They looked at a calendar to figure out how many days had passed since high school summer break began and realized it was the 41st day (August 6, 1996). The Rebrand: They dropped the name Kaspir and renamed the group Sum 41 (short for “summer 41”). They first used the name publicly at a local Battle of the Bands on September 28, 1996. 

This is Why Sum 41 Ended: Burnout and Touring Fatigue: Frontman Deryck Whibley decided to walk away after decades of nonstop touring (often 10 months a year) and giving 1,000% daily focus to the band. 

Health and Lifestyle Shifts: Whibley suffered a near-fatal health crisis related to alcoholism in 2014 and a pneumonia hospitalization, prompting him to want a calmer, more stable life (he eventually relocated to Las Vegas). The Final Album: Whibley felt that completing their 2024 double album, Heaven :x: Hell, was the natural creative peak and closing chapter for the group. Permanent Split: Whibley purposely chose a complete breakup rather than an indefinite hiatus, stating they wanted to “burn the boats” and finish with a final world tour and their induction into the Canadian Music Hall of Fame in early 2025.

Facts about sum 41: Sum 41 also likes the Ramones Guns N’ Roses Black Sabbath and misfits. Genre: They are a Canadian rock, pop-punk, and alternative metal band, not a Christian music group. Lyrics and Themes: Their songs focus on general life experiences, political/social commentary, personal struggles, and rock themes rather than religious or gospel messages. Misconceptions: People occasionally confuse them with Christian rock groups due to similar-sounding names (like the biblical book Psalm 41) or occasional religious imagery/colloquialisms in song titles, though fans generally agree these are purely coincidental. “Fat Lip” (from All Killer No Filler, 2001): Their signature pop-punk and hip-hop mashup that launched them into mainstream stardom.”In Too Deep” (from All Killer No Filler, 2001): Often considered their most popular and widely recognized streaming track, praised for its infectious pop-punk energy. Still Waiting” (from Does This Look Infected?, 2002): An iconic, aggressive rock track that became a staple of early 2000s rock radio. Deryck Whibley and the core members of Sum 41 were 21 years old when they achieved mainstream fame in 2001.

Top sad songs of sum 41: “Pieces” (from Chuck, 2004): A cathartic, vulnerable rock ballad about realizing you are better off alone rather than trapped in a toxic relationship or broken state of mind. “Crash” (from Underclass Hero, 2007): A slow, heartbreaking track written from a perspective of facing a fatal or tragic end, dealing with themes of dying too soon and leaving someone behind (“Was supposed to grow old with you / But that ain’t gonna happen”). “Slipping Away” (from Chuck, 2004): A dark, melancholic song about depression, isolation, and feeling completely lost or overwhelmed by life. “Never There” (from Order in Decline, 2019): An emotional acoustic-driven song written by Deryck Whibley about growing up without an absent father. “The Hell Song” (from Does This Look Infected?, 2002): While fast-paced musically, fans often point to it as deeply emotional because it was written about a close friend contracting HIV. 

This is the Timeline of Their Rise to Fame:  

1996 Formation On the 41st day of summer (summer break of grade 12), Deryck Whibley and Steve Jocz formed the band originally named Kaspir before rebranding as Sum 41. Dave Baksh and Jason “Cone” McCaslin later completed the classic lineup.

1999 Major Label Signing  Following local touring, an intense bidding war led the band to sign an international record deal with Island Records. 2000 Half Hour of Power (EP) — Released on June 27, 2000, their debut EP introduced tracks like “Makes No Difference” and achieved gold certification in Canada. 2001: All Killer No Filler & Mainstream Explosion — The band released their breakthrough debut studio album, All Killer No Filler. Lead single “Fat Lip” hit number one on Billboard’s Modern Rock Tracks chart and dominated MTV’s TRL, propelling the album to multi-platinum status. 2002–2004: Sustained Stardom with Does This Look Infected? and Chuck   Sum 41 followed up with critical and commercial hits like “In Too Deep,” “Still Waiting,” and “Pieces,” cementing their reputation for blending pop-punk hooks with heavy metal solos and comedic alter-egos like Pain for Pleasure.

Sum 41 formed in Ajax, Ontario, and rose from a local high school project to global pop-punk and alternative metal icons through high-energy performances and massive early-2000s MTV hits.

The next song is Machine Gun it’s a good song to listen to sometimes. And I wouldn’t listen to this song like on a day to day basis. Maybe like if you’re drunk or something then maybe give it a listen. Now ima talk about the history behind these songs. First is Machine Gun: Machine Gun” is the second track on Sum 41’s debut EP, Half Hour of Power, which was released in June 2000.

This is the Origins and Evolution: Early Era The song was written during the band’s formative period right around the time they transitioned from their original incarnation as a cover band named Casper into Sum 41. Sound Development Tracks like “Machine Gun” and “Summer” helped shape the aggressive, high-energy pop-punk/skate-punk sound the band was experimenting with as they moved away from simply imitating their early influences. Releases While it originally anchored Half Hour of Power, the track has remained a fan favorite over the decades and has occasionally surfaced in anniversary reissues and live sets (such as bonus live versions featured on later editions of All Killer, No Filler).

This is the Lyrics and Themes: The Meaning: Lyrically, the song captures a chaotic snapshot of youth burnout, heavy partying, and morning-after regret. The Vibe: It details waking up on a stranger’s floor or in an unfamiliar house with a severe hangover, eating cold pizza on a curb, and feeling exhausted by a self-destructive cycle of reckless behavior. 

The next album I’m going to talk about is “Does This Look infected” 

“The hell song” is pretty good Is pretty good I would play this song if your going through something like Pain and insecure about yourself. And he’s saying everybody has there problems and issues you just got to figure it out on yourself. Im now going to talk about the history about this song. Sum 41 released “The Hell Song” as the second single from their second studio album, Does This Look Infected?, in early 2003.

This is the Inspiration and Meaning: The Personal Backstory: The Lead singer Deryck Whibley wrote the track after finding out that his close friend, Jessica Whitbread, had been diagnosed with HIV. Fast-Written Lyrics: Whibley noted that the song poured out of him in less than half an hour right after he heard the news. Not an Awareness Anthem: Whibley clarified that it is not specifically an HIV or AIDS awareness track, but rather a reflection on how fast life and human health can unexpectedly change. Support from the Band: At the time, Sum 41 was experiencing massive mainstream success (following hits like “Fat Lip”) and used part of their resources to help pay for their friend’s treatments and medication.

This is about the music video: Action Figures: Directed by Marc Klasfeld, the music video sharply contrasts the serious subject matter with humor. It features custom-made action figures and dolls with the band members’ faces taped onto them, performing in front of a Lite-Brite screen. Low-Budget Style: The video deliberately kept strings, hands, and rough edges visible rather than going for a high-gloss, serious cinematic look.

This is the Release and Legacy: Chart Success: The track became a top-40 hit in the United Kingdom, Ireland, and Italy, and was eventually certified Gold by the RIAA on May 29, 2015. Pop-Punk/Metal Fusion: Critics praised the track for bridging melodic pop-punk structure with heavier thrash and alternative metal guitar work, setting a tone that the band carried forward for years.

This is part 2 of sum 41 I’ll be talking about two albums and what are good songs to check out. I recommend checking out 13 voices it came out 2016 on this album it as a song war has over 124 million listeners. 157,102 listeners tracked on Last.fm. The song “War” by Sum 41 (released on August 25, 2016, as a single from their album 13 Voices) was written by frontman Deryck Whibley about his intense personal battle and recovery from near-fatal alcohol abuse. This was released as the lead single from 13 Voices. Frontman Deryck Whibley explained the story behind the song:”I picked this song because of its importance to me. I feel this song literally saved my life. I was at my absolute lowest point of what seemed like a never ending recovery. I was at a tipping point where I could have easily just given up and went back to my old ways of alcohol abuse which would’ve ended up killing me, which at the time felt like a better option, when all of a sudden, in mid thought, these lyrics sort of appeared in my head and i grabbed a pencil and paper instead of a bottle and started writing. When I read it back to myself I realized I had written words that I would need to live up to if I wanted to survive. whenever I had any thoughts of giving up I would read these lyrics myself to remind me that I need to keep fighting harder and what it was exactly I was fighting for.”

The Story and Inspiration: Near-Death Recovery Whibley suffered severe organ damage in 2014 due to years of heavy alcoholism, leading to a difficult and painful recovery process. A Tipping Point Whibley shared that he was at his lowest point and on the verge of giving up, contemplating a return to drinking—which he knew would kill him. Writing the Song Right in the middle of that thought, the lyrics to “War” appeared in his head. Instead of reaching for a bottle, he grabbed a pen and paper to write them down. He later noted that writing the words forced him to live up to them if he wanted to survive. Metaphorical Battle The track frames his internal struggle against addiction as a literal war—a fight to reclaim his life and overcome his past regrets. Sum 41 released their sixth studio album, 13 Voices, on October 7, 2016, via Hopeless Records. The album serves as a major comeback record born out of frontman Deryck Whibley’s near-death experience, recovery from alcoholism, and massive lineup shifts. 

The next song ima talk about this album is breaking the chain. ” Breaking the Chain” is heavily inspired by frontman Deryck Whibley’s harrowing, real-life battle with severe alcoholism and his journey toward recovery. In 2014, Whibley suffered severe liver and kidney failure that landed him in a near-fatal medically induced coma. The entire 13 Voices album serves as a chronological timeline of his rehabilitation, and “Breaking the Chain” specifically addresses the painful process of choosing sobriety. 41 “Breaking the Chain” is track 4 on Canadian rock band Sum 41’s sixth studio album, 13 Voices, released on October 7, 2016, through Hopeless Records. Personal Recovery The song was written by frontman Deryck Whibley and producer Mike Green. It reflects Whibley’s harrowing personal battle with severe alcohol abuse and the near-fatal health collapse he suffered in 2014, which forced him into a long, painful recovery. Lyrical Themes The track deals with self-liberation, facing past deceptions, accepting responsibility (“I’ve paid my price / I’ve done my time with the devil in disguise”), and cutting ties with destructive addictions or habits. Album Context 13 Voices served as Sum 41’s triumphant comeback record after Whibley’s recovery and the return of lead guitarist Dave “Brownsound” Baksh. The album centers heavily on themes of survival, mental health, and starting over. Acoustic Version An acoustic version of the song was later released in 2020 as part of the 13 Voices B-Sides collection.

The next album is heaven :x: hell: Sum 41’s final double album, Heaven :x: Hell, was released on March 29, 2024, via Rise Records. It serves as the band’s 20-track swan song before concluding their nearly three-decade career. 

Album Structure & Concept: The 20 tracks are split into two distinct thematic and musical halves. Heaven (10 tracks): Returns to the band’s early 2000s melodic pop-punk and skate punk roots, inspired by frontman Deryck Whibley driving with his young son and listening to 90s punk. Key singles include “Landmines”. Hell (10 tracks): Continues the heavier alternative metal, thrash, and aggressive style the band embraced in their later career, featuring tracks like “Rise Up” and a cover of the Rolling Stones’ “Paint It Black”.

This the History & Background

Announcement Sum 41 announced in 2023 that they would disband after 27+ years together, citing burnout and a desire to close the chapter on a high note. Tour of the Setting Sum The band supported the album with a massive global farewell tour running from January 2024 through January 2025. Legacy: The album received widespread critical acclaim (including an 85/100 score on Metacritic), celebrating the dual identities—pop-punk and heavy metal—that defined Sum 41’s evolution.  

Now ima talk about my two favorite songs on this album landmines and paint it black. I’m going to talk about the history about these two songs first is landmines.  This is the Writing and Creation of the song landmines. Origins Frontman Deryck Whibley wrote “Landmines” quickly after being asked to write songs for other artists, deciding instead to keep it for Sum 41. Style The track marks a return to the band’s fast-paced, old-school pop-punk roots reminiscent of their early 2000s career. Production Whibley wrote, sang lead vocals, and co-produced the track with Mike Green.

This the Release and Record Deal:

Rise Records  “Landmines” was the first single released after the band signed a new deal with Rise Records / BMGfor their final album. Music Video The accompanying music video portrays a 1998 high school prom that transitions into a chaotic rock show and food fight. Band Disbandment The song arrived shortly after the band announced in May 2023 that they would be disbanding after a 27-year career and a final world tour.

This is the Chart History and Milestones:

Billboard Number One On the chart dated March 9, 2024, “Landmines” hit No. 1 on the Billboard Alternative Airplay chart. Historic Gap: This marked Sum 41’s first No. 1 on the chart since “Fat Lip” in August 2001—a 22-year, 5-month, and 3-week gap that set a record for the longest span between No. 1 songs by the same artist in the chart’s history.

Hello this is Tyler Hughes  I’m Mojo’s new writer for Lost Anarchy (shout out Ash and H.T.T.H) this is my article part 1 for Sum 41 I look like the singer his name is Deryck Whibley.

The band of sum 41 was created in Ajax, Ontario in 1996, The band is also known as Pain for pleasure, The band been around since 1996. The first successful album was called fat lip. It reached number one on modern billboard. Heaven :x: Hell, was released on March 29, 2024. The band disbanded in March 2025, following a final worldwide headlining tour and their induction into the Canadian Music Hall of Fame. Sum 41 signed an international record deal with Island Records and released its first EP, Half Hour of Power, in 2000. Sum 41 was nominated for a Grammy Award for Best Hard Rock/Metal Performance for the song “Blood in My Eyes”. From their formation to 2016, Sum 41 were the 31st best-selling Canadian artist in Canada. The band debuted its new name during Supernova’s Battle of the Bands on September 28, 1996. The band met their manager and producer Greig Nori, also the lead vocalist of the band Treble Charger, in 1996 at Jonopalooza, and Whibley convinced Nori to watch his band perform. Sum 41’s first full-length album, All Killer No Filler, was released on May 8, 2001. The album was certified platinum by the Recording Industry Association of America in August 2001. The band often performed more than 100 times each year and held long global tours, most of which lasted more than a year. The group was nominated for seven Juno Awardsand won twice – Group of the Year in 2003, and Rock Album of the Year for Chuck in 2005. Voices album came out 2016 songs called A murder of crows. 

Nick Fuoco presents
Metal Mayhem Halloween Costume Party Extravaganza
Fri Oct 30th at The 3 Clubs
1123 Vine St, Los Angeles, CA 90038..14 Bands.2 Stages. 3 Rooms.GOGO Dancers. DJs. Costume Contest. Drink Specials. Vendors. Food Trucks
Featuring NIGHTMARE the Alice Cooper tribute. HTTH. Black Pearl Light.Hollywood Apocalypse. Mancici Rocks.Smegma.Keli Raven and many more
Doors open 5:30pm
$15 in advance. $20 at the door . See you there

By Tracy Kimberly Fuentes

City Honors and Underground Royalty

Three decades into an unbroken streak of industrial metal, Long Beach legends Heavenly Trip to Hell (HTTH) aren’t slowing down—they’re escalating. On August 13th at the Road Dogs TV Legacy Award Show, the band reached a milestone three decades in the making: receiving official recognition from the City of Long Beach for 30 years of uncompromising contributions to music, culture, and the local scene.

For frontman G Christ, keyboardist Vicky Vicious, bassist Sergio, and the rest of the crew, the civic honor was a nod to a band that never compromised, never played a single cover song, and consistently held down the underground. But true to HTTH fashion, there was no time to rest on their laurels. The award was simply the starting gun for their next wild chapter.

Crossing Borders: The Mexico Stampede

Taking their raw, heavy sound across the border, HTTH is set to launch a explosive two-night run in Mexico this September:

• Friday, September 11th: Invading El Dragon Rojo in Tijuana for a night of relentless industrial rhythm and chaos.
• Saturday, September 12th: Heading further south to Ensenada to take over The Black Dog.

For HTTH, playing south of the border is a natural extension of their sonic ethos. “We’ve always gone against the grain,” Sergio reflects. “We don’t care what’s popular or trendy—we just do what we love and take the madness wherever the music leads.”

Homecoming Mayhem at Thunder Studios

The month-long 30th-anniversary celebration culminates on Saturday, September 26th in their home turf of Long Beach. HTTH returns to headline a massive multi-genre festival at Thunder Studios, bringing together an insane, stacked lineup of iconic bands and local legends:

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                    LIVE AT THUNDER STUDIOS (SEPT 26)

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  HEADLINER:      HEAVENLY TRIP TO HELL (30th Anniversary Set)

  FEATURING:      Tijuana No! | Insecticide | The Reckless | ICT Double Tap

                              Chnnls | Joata | Blakvoid | Sugar Fix

                               Mariah The Empress | Reymundo | Familiar Faces …and more!

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From Xerox-copied flyers in the ’90s to city proclamations and sold-out international dates, Heavenly Trip to Hell remains living proof that real rock and roll doesn’t soften with age—it just gets louder.

Catch HTTH live at Thunder Studios on September 26th. The madness is far from over—they’re just getting started.

Sincerely,

Tracy Kimberly Fuentes

You’ve got a new album coming out. Tell us about it.

Yes—we have a new album called Healing Miserable coming out on October 31, and we’re incredibly proud of it. We’ve spent about a year making it across eleven separate recording sessions. It features twelve songs, a wide variety of instruments, and explores so many different musical directions.

To me, it feels more akin to musical theater than the pop and rock people may usually associate with us—but it’s also incredibly versatile. I genuinely think there’s something on it for everybody. We’re very, very proud of what we’ve created, and we can’t wait to finally put it out into the world.

Do you have any upcoming shows planned?

We haven’t booked anything yet. We’re at a stage in our lives where we don’t necessarily know where we’re going to be from one week to the next, so we’re allowing a little time to pass before committing to any dates. But we will absolutely be back onstage.

With this new album, the live presentation will probably have to expand considerably. Emily and I won’t be able to recreate it by ourselves if we want it to sound as layered, powerful, and full of different instruments and effects as we imagine it. We’ll likely need to bring in additional musicians and personnel.

We may do a small, intimate duo performance at the Petit Ermitage, but our next full shows will be much more theatrical, with far more people onstage than just the two of us. We still need to determine exactly how we’re going to accomplish that and then book everything, so realistically, you probably won’t see us onstage again until 2027—unless we somehow come up with a wild Christmas show.

What makes you tick now?

All sorts of obscure little things: old records discovered for two dollars in a 45 bin, lost newspaper articles unearthed in thrift shops, strange Halloween decorations from the 1970s, abandoned dolls dating back to the Second World War, and ’70s cooking recipes that read less like instructions for preparing food and more like elaborate ways of getting away with doing drugs.

It’s essentially the same collection of strange things that has always made us tick—only now the fascination has become deeper, more obsessive, and more intense.

What’s your favorite David Lynch movie, and why?

Emily gravitates more toward Mulholland Drive, while I gravitate toward Wild at Heart. But if you put the two of us together, the answer is most obviously Lost Highway.

It has this sense of dread, but also a strange feeling of acceptance—like driving deep into the void and surrendering to wherever it takes you. If you try to explain the story to somebody, it doesn’t really make much sense. But when you watch it and allow yourself to feel all of its bizarre, emotional, and disorienting moments, it achieves a rare kind of perfection. You understand it emotionally rather than logically.

So yes, together, we would have to say Lost Highway.

Any big plans for Halloween?

I don’t know what Emily has planned, but I need to return to Europe to renew my visa, take care of some medical things, and see my family. I’m just praying that, like the demon I am, I’ll make it back home to Los Angeles by All Hallows’ Eve.

I’m also supposed to play a show with Hollywood Apocalypse on Devil’s Night—October 30, the night before Halloween—so let’s hope I make it back in time.

Any last words?

We absolutely cannot wait to share this album with all of you—and with the world. We have poured so much love, joy, and sadness into it, and I think it truly reveals who we are, not only as people but as artists.

I’d also like to end by quoting something I said after the very first Death of a Nightingale show:

“I didn’t think so many people would understand—but they do.”

Healed or haunting. Both lives in me every waking minute of my life. With or with out love, I am the sacrifice. With every hard choice I made to keep my son safe. I’m nauseous as I feel this these words  resonating deeply within my soul in the present moment and lingering lessons from long long ago. Today I am a completely different version of myself.

It’s amazing how many different lives 

we live in one lifetime if we’re lucky(?)
I am ConStance Ly Steele. Not perfect. Real. Bold. Brave. Still here winning 

and with no apologies do I owe. 

Now I walk alone an eternity of polished cultured chaos from  my Weathering beautifully obnoxious broken heart. 

On lifes stage that I remain.

 Lessons that teach us can no longer destroy us.  
Let it be loud enough for the heaven to rejoice and for the devil to shake when my feet hit the ground  for I fear neither. 

Nothings ever saved me for no protections do I hold. Lucky ones call them parents and I call em monsters that left me on my own “Leave her hurt. We’ll just call her a liar.” You see life will go on for everyone except for me. 

I’m sorry to that girl so many versions ago, Shes be proud now that we have became the person that once upon a time we needed so. 

Wherever I land is now my home.

Paranormal Polarities that seem 

to always find me but now Im 

fearless on my battered throne.
I embody the paranormal + the peacefulness of forgiveness that my  broken heart yearned for yet no more seeks. 
For the beyond is encrypted into feasible factual realistic expectations of once an unacceptable duration.   My living hell where I was deliberately enslaved. 

Life has always been a bitch.

 Eventually, I learned that I should come to terms with the basic fact I’ve always found more peace with the ones who are already gone than the ones who are here. 

Singing the same fucking fight song.

The ones who wait to love you when you’re gone, instead of loving you while you’re alive. Proclaiming of how they adored you. Not at my funeral 

pour me a shot

 make it a double
save your words for hallmark

 and move along. 

 For having no more pain, well,

those days have never came.
A logistic.
Gone vs. Here.
Alive vs. After.
After what happened, 

after the aftermath or 

after this is all said and done.

 No apology could erase the pain
I feel every day. No one has won.

I escaped domestic abuse. My son’s father was horrid.  This is what happens with parents don’t teach their daughters any better. We Unconsciously after the bad guys for protection. Eventually  he becomes our monster  we actually conquered .All the monsters are not in your head. They are in the dark 

every night under your bed.
They’re in the shadows. 

They’re in the whispers of everybody’s quotes that wants to pay you as a victim, but  forgot you’re the fuckin goat.
I raised my son on my own. 

I told all those mommy-lies to protect him. It came from a good place in my heart 

that may he never feel what I had to feel.
Plot twist.DNA always wins.
“I’m not sorry I turned every moment

 of my life into devotion for my only child.  Totally disgusted he holds his vicious father victorious and like I’m not even alive. 

It’s all about ones own version of love’s expectations that will save us or bury us.

No love last forever and I mean no love.
Even when people die. The pain doesn’t.
I turned into everything positive 

that I possibly could.
I had two choices 

and I chose alchemy.
Yet now we’re estranged 

and it’s all my fault —

 in his delusioned eyes.

When his father passed away.

 My son saw a picture online. 

The athletic Bank robber was seized. Somebody came to collect. 

He never made it through the night. 

“He didn’t look sick!”

 My son Angrily proclaimed! 

They always said that the 

goddamn devil would be gorgeous. 

No truer words are spoken .
A notorious Bank robber and hitman 

Fast Eddie ruthless style kind of dude. 

My son feels to follow his footsteps.

 How could that be?
I unknowingly realized that I gave up 

all my pretty years and for what would

 later condemn me unjustly and still, I rise. 

His father always said to me 143. I love you. He gave it to me in golden ambulates. Adored like a queen wrapped in gold 

which would be ripped off whenever 

he got a real bad Jones. Often.

“He had demons.”they say. And that was the excused for turning their head away 

while all my promise was beaten out of me.

This August 30 after a deep meditation as  all the lights in my studio flickered three times. A knock on the wall 333.

 I heard a Voice at the door 444 

whistle at night. 

If you learn nothing from me, 

please never answer these entities. 

I knew as three flickers of the lights did arrive.  I fully understood that was meant for me. He came crawling through the ethers. Either way to say he loved me,

 or to beat my ass. I never knew which. 

I was Absolutely fully prepared to battle 

an entity I couldn’t physically see. 

This On my son’s birthday.  Alone, I am as the night unfolded, my lights flickered three times. Distinct. Clear. Real.
I chose to take it as love. Not fear. 

That’s the only way to conquer the dark. 

The biggest polarity of all

 is Fear vs. Love. Same signal.
2 Different choices.
I chose the light.
I seek no revenge. 

I’m nobody’s victim ever again.
I am victorious and be well advised 

not to mess with me for having two choices is the  only reason I can let it be. 

Forgiveness isn’t saying 

what happened was okay.
Forgiveness is choosing which 

polarity I live in the rest of my nights.

The real heroes aren’t the ones who got  away. The real heroes are the ones

 who were with you that stayed.
And I am still here unapologetically. 

Bold. Beautiful. Obnoxious.

 Pushing through boundaries that would kill most. To be beaten in a physical,

 leaves me no fear of death by a ghost.

I am something to behold I am beautiful, 

no matter how the story unfolds. I will forever be ConStance Ly Steele. I take no man’s name for that never shall be. 

For not one has ever loved or rescued me. That quite all right. It’s not like I have a choice.  so I am conquered in flight. Where’s my fairytale memories 

and a happy ending for me. 

 I don’t believe in love. 

I don’t believe it’s real. 

It’s something that I definitely 

 Nonever want to ever re feel.
I don’t have time for any more mistakes surviving the polarities of life 

and my own past mistakes. 

Most spirits, are much more loving than the remorseless humans that remain. 

My advice to you, my friend…

”Don’t lie to protect anybody else’s feelings ever again for someday it’ll backfire on you too….eventually. 

There is something deeply backwards about a country that prides itself on being a cultural powerhouse making it increasingly difficult for international musicians to perform on its stages. For heavy metal fans, this is becoming painfully familiar.

In August 2026, Swedish death-metal veterans Hypocricy were forced to cancel their entire North American tour because of visa problems. The tour was supposed to run from Toronto through the United States and end in Los Angeles. The band apologized to fans, saying the visa problems were beyond their control and that they had done everything they could. This was not some unknown garage band trying to sneak into America for a weekend. Hypocrisy has been a major name in extreme metal since the early 1990s, and this wasn’t even their first experience with U.S. visa trouble. The band previously canceled U.S. dates in 2009 because of work-visa delays. Hypocrisy is hardly alone in this issue, however. 

In 2022, Swedish black-metal band Watain was forced to withdraw from a North American tour with Mayhem and Midnight after the U.S. Embassy placed its visa applications into an additional, undisclosed “administrative process.” The band had previously toured the United States eight times using approved working visas. This time, however, there was no clear explanation and no guarantee the investigation would finish before the tour ended. The fact that a band can do everything right and still lose is simply maddening. 

International musicians generally cannot simply arrive under a tourist or visa-waiver authorization and perform professionally. Established groups commonly require a P-1B petition, and the process can involve contracts, detailed itineraries, labor consultation, evidence of international recognition, press coverage, performance history and documentation for individual members. USCIS describes the P-1B process as requiring substantial evidence that the group is internationally recognized and has been established and performing together for at least a year. If a band has had recent member changes, this becomes even more of a hurdle. 

Recent reporting indicates that artist petitions can take many months, with some P-visa processing reportedly reaching roughly eleven and a half months. Application costs have also risen dramatically. The result is a system in which an international band can spend thousands of dollars, months of preparation and enormous amounts of administrative effort, only to face delays and uncertainty after the petition has been approved. For independent metal bands, that can be devastating.

A tour is not just four musicians getting on an airplane. Promoters book venues. Tickets are sold. Merchandise is manufactured. Flights and hotels are purchased. Trucks and crew are scheduled. Support bands are booked. Fans make travel plans. Every day of delay costs money. What even is the gain of denying these bands last minute? Is it a power move? Does the US really think they don’t desperately need a lesson in European culture? The United States also looks increasingly out of step when compared with touring in much of Europe. That doesn’t mean European touring is completely bureaucracy free because American bands absolutely can encounter work-permit, tax, customs and immigration requirements, particularly after Brexit. Nonetheless, many European countries have established visa and work-permit free routes for short-term touring musicians. The British government, for example, says 20 EU countries confirmed such routes for British performers, while other European countries maintain their own simplified arrangements.

Overall, an American metal band can have paperwork to deal with in Europe. But the experience is not necessarily equivalent to navigating the U.S. artist-visa system, particularly for short tours. This isn’t just a small inconvenience for the European bands to play in the US because America always needs culture. Heavy metal, punk, goth, industrial, classical music, electronic music and countless other scenes have always depended on international exchange. A Swedish death metal band brings Swedish metal culture to American fans. A Brazilian band brings Brazilian influences. A Japanese band brings something that American audiences may never otherwise encounter. Global unification is the point. When legitimate artists start deciding that America is too expensive, too unpredictable or too difficult to tour, the country doesn’t become safer or stronger. It becomes exponentially weak, and biased. This has to change yesterday. 

Watain may eventually return, and  Hypocrisy may reschedule. Other bands will undoubtedly find ways through the system, but many great bands that were touring in 2018, have turned their backs on touring the US because it has become such a royal pain in the ass. The irony that America is the melting pot of different cultures, but won’t simplify the process of bringing over great bands from other countries, is uncanny. These are talented visitors bringing us entertainment that we so desperately need. If Aliens from another planet wanted to play a show here, they should be allowed as well. Let them pass! Let global unification exist!